XOXO

So after going at the bank to claim my ATM, I went to national bookstore with my mom this late afternoon, suddenly I had an idea (yes impulsiveness you may come in.) I want to do an experiment and I hope that it'll work, I'm not gonna reveal (just yet) what it's all about. as you've seen in the picture I bought back issues of foreign mags at Book Sale, a sketchpad, tracing paper, a marker and jotter pad. I have been constantly deliberating with myself for the past 2 days what is it that I want to try and it's been bugging me ever since so I had to do something. Early this morning I've been researching for some tips, do's and don'ts in drawing a fashion figure, I don't know what's been happening in my mind lately it has been filled with so many ideas, stuff. system overload!. Could it be the artistic blood in me (I came from a family of artists) is overflowing in system right now replacing the scientific one? (I'm over reacting and I'm not making any sense here. forgive me. haha) All I know is that I just feel the need to let it all out and see for myself what would be the outcome. Let's just pray that it's gonna be something great.

Since I'm taking a permanent residence here at blogger (after several failed attempts in creating a decent blog), I'm thinking of doing this challenge, it sounds fun and everyday I got to share a piece of me, isn't that great? though I might say some topics are a bit personal but I'll try my best to come up with a brief but honest answer. So yeah, I'l start this coming September 1 and I hope I'll be able to finish it. :)

take the challenge too!

Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 02- A picture of something you cannot live without.
Day 03- A habit that you wish you didn’t have.
Day 04- List 15 songs that represent your life’s soundtrack.
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to.
Day 06- A hobby you have.
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you.
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why.
Day 09- Something/someone you’re proud of.
Day 10- A story about a past relationship.
Day 11- A picture of something you dislike.
Day 12- A picture of your room & don’t cheat by cleaning it. Share a secret.
Day 13- Write a letter telling someone something you could never tell them.
Day 14- A picture of something you ate and 10 confessions.
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle & share the first 10 songs that play.
Day 16- Something you could live without.
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have.
Day 19- Nicknames you have & how or why you have them.
Day 20- If you had 3 wishes, what would they be.
Day 21- Share a picture from your day.
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else.
Day 23- What is something you crave.
Day 24- Share a story about your past that you are ashamed of.
Day 25- What I would find in your bag.
Day 26- Places you want to visit before you die.
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge?
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned.
Day 30- A picture of you today & 20 goals you want to accomplish.

I don't know what's gotten into me, but right now I have to admit I have a new addiction: BOOTS. yay! . Whenever I go to thrift stores, I always check out on boots, but never did I imagine that I'm going to develop a fanciness for them.haha. It's just crazy, I said to my mom that I NEEDED correction, DESPERATELY NEED to buy a pair of those and convinced her to come with me and she quickly said yes and to top all that, she even supported me and helped me find an awesome boots! I only bought a pair (I'm running out of money you know. sucks right)and I promised myself that on my first payday, I'm going to buy two pairs! ha! I also bought white fitted tweed jacket; perfect partner for my boots. :)

It has always been a plan of me to enroll in a dance workshop but every year I failed with so many reasons that I can’t even remember, but this time (hopefully) I’ll try again, well if it fits my schedule and I hope that I don’t have work at Saturdays so I may able to attend the classes. I was browsing the net and came upon this: ACTS Dance and Arts Academy who are offering different kinds of classes for different kinds of genres for everyone who loves dancing and the price?. I was stunned; they cater workshops for about 1700-3500 for 6-12 sessions, now how good is that eh?. I also liked their schedule, it’s very flexible and you could choose from what day and time that is convenient for you and their studio is just in Mandaluyong, now how great is that.

I’m thinking of Lyrical Hiphop (Interpretative and sexy dance moves in the tune of slow RnB?. ohyeah), or maybe Jazz Funk (I’m quite intrigued by this class) or I should try Jazz (I’m worried I don’t have any history in ballet moves or whatever, but I’d love to try this) or I can go hiphop (It has been my favorite genre eversince. :))

For more Info, go to there site here

I just hope I can squeeze this into my schedule next month. *fingers crossed*

I love my new glasses! Of course I only wear this when I’m at home or when my contact lenses seems to be too much for my eyes. This is the first time I bought a quite expensive frames ‘cause since I always prefer contacts, but since I’m going to start on a new work next month, and there’s a big possibility that the company may suggest that I use glasses instead of the other so I prepared for that. I can’t afford to look like geeky or a dork, I’m maarte like that you know. haha.

thanks to GAP for my eyewear. wooot

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this is the first ever outfit that I've created. :)


this is so much fun. :)

I went thrift shopping today and these are the awesome stuff that I bought. Take a look at that beige pointed shoes, isn’t beautiful?. when I tried it on, I just can’t help but buy it. it’s love at first sight!. hihi. When I say thrift shopping, I mean thrift!. I bought the 2 shoes 2oo bucks each, the cloche hat for 85, the red jacket for 150 and the jeans for 300. haha.

You don’t need to spend a lot of money to look stunning or fabulous but what you need is the ‘eye’ for what’s hot or not, the skills in mix and match-ing and know where to find those awesome yet cheap and affordable clothes, bags, accessories with good quality.

It's too painful to break up with someone especially when that person means a lot to you. It's an awful, horrible feeling. words can't describe how much I feel. It's a lot harder when 'goodbyes' aren't said, just a series of unpleasant, intense and harsh words thrown at each other without any hesitation. and right there and then, bot of you knew that the end of the relationship is gone. Why does it have to end this way?. It's terrible. If it wasn't for some useless and worthless issue that arose before, none of this would have happened. This just makes me sad. Every nasty accusations can't be taken back and what's worse is that it is still fresh and continuously piercing through every bit of my being leaving me sore all over. I hate this.

I so badly need morphine...

I want to get a permanent curly hair. I find the straight hair look a bit boring. I want something new. All my life I’ve been dying to have a straight hair and now I’m so in to curling it. what the heck has happened?. haha. You know that feeling when you think you want something all your life then all of a sudden you just change your mind?.

And they lived happily ever after... and together they lived in happiness......

Does it always have to be happy fuckin endings?...

this kind of endings doesn't really work for me like it used to when I was a kid. Don't get me wrong, I'm not so much of a pessimistic or what, of course everyone wants a happy ending, aren't we?. but as we all know, it isn't always that way. works that way. From what I've read in the novels or watched in the movies, few have those sad (like both of the characters died or something like that), hanging or open-ended stories wherein the audience will have to create an ending for their own satisfaction. That interests me so much because I think that's what Life really is. Unpredictable. Unthinkable. Fun yet frustrating and a lil bit messed up. and yes I believe in that saying "...but of course we'll never know...". But only one thing that I really like about literatures and films with positive outcomes is they never fail to give us hope; that whatever life may bring us, no matter how pretty fucked up things may be or will be, we just have to be optimistic and resilient and be strong enough to face every damn challenges that may come our way.

after many years of smoking (almost 8 years to be exact?), My lungs are STILL, essentially normal- yep you heard it right, that's what the doctor said. Thank God. It's a tough decision but yes, I'm going to stop and quit smoking. It has become part of my system and getting rid of it was quite hard but I know I'm making the right decision, it's for the sake of my future. I just can't risk my health over some destructive habit. from the nature of my course and the work that entails it, I can't afford to have a respiratory problem. so there. If I wanted to go abroad I have to be completely careful taking care of my lungs and of course my whole body. Health buff, yes I'm becoming one. I hate to admit but yeah I think I've outgrown those 'wild days', you know, the getting all drunk, smoking ciggies like there's no tomorrow, partying almost everyday and all that shiz. I'm slowly taking that kind of life out of my system, not totally though but gradually. Hello, I'm already in my early 20's, I'm not a teen anymore and I should be more precautious and be serious with what's going on with my life. There's no school anymore, no teachers to guide you, or parents to watch you every single move you make, I'm on my own now, well not completely but ye know. by the next few years I'll be out there. Independent and living the life that I wanted to have.

well ok, I just want to say that I'm quitting smoking and it's good to know that my lungs are still functioning normally. OK, I might try to smoke, one stick or two, Let me rephrase what I said: what I'm trying to get rid of is the habit, because that's the crucial part. but as much as possible I'll try not to. because yes, there will always be temptation (you know what I mean), but surely it won't be like before. I've been managing not to smoke everyday and yes I must say that I'm quite successful. cheers to that!. goodbye ciggies, hello smoke free life or less smoke free life?. hoho

Once there was a tree...and she loved a little boy.

I came upon this timeless story of Shel Silverstein about the wonders of love and its capacity to move people in doing simple yet majestic acts to the ones they love and never expecting anything in return. The tree lets the little boy play with it, climb it, even gives him apples when he is hungry. then one day, the boy grew up and along with it came his desire to want something more and more and the tree, who love the boy so much that she gave everything that she has in order for him to be happy; giving all her apples, branches and trunk. The tree never demanded anything from the boy she was just glad to help and even when the boy became an old man and only wanted nothing but to rest, she offered the last thing that remained of her- who is now only a stump.- and let him sit on her and both of them became happy.

I was touched after watching it. This is what you call True Love.Selfless Love. giving without receiving. being selfless and ready to offer help without expectations, demands or whatever. We just give, all that we have and be happy that we did just for the sake of our loved ones even if they don't love us back. When you love someone it isn't necessary that the other one should love you too, right?. It's like, does saying 'I love you' to someone requires the other party to say 'I love you too' back?. does it really matter?

Love the most powerful thing there is. It can make us do crazy, unimaginable but brilliant things. ahh the power of love.

Certainly, this is not just recommended for young ages, this can also be read by the grown ups too. This is one of those perfect children's stories that can read by the adults too especially those who have forgotten the true meaning of Love. If you haven't watched it yet, go ahead and be moved. be touched by this inspiring work

Everything in my life right now is in suspense and I don't know what to make of it. what to feel. excited?. nervous?. happy?. it's just a mixture of emotions and I can't pinpoint the dominant one. My application at Nestle is still on the line. it's still hanging for almost a month now, yesterday I've cleared for Medical exams. and after spending almost 3k for that, I finally get that slip where in it says I'm "fit to work". twas worth it. But I'm sure as hell don't want to be too confident about it, the HR head and Lab head STILL has to evaluate the results. I went to the Nestle Factory also only to find out that. I was about to exit the company's premises when a guard blocked and asked me to go back to the clinic, so there I was surprised and I had this big question mark on my face, so I went back and the nurse asked me some questions about my issue on smoking and all that, "why did you stop smoking?," "what's the reason?" and all that shit. I think she is going to back me up with the head of lab (I hope she does. ohmygod).

I left Batangas all hopeful. The other feelings are gone. While things are still in a halt, uncertain. undecided, I prefer to be a lil bit doubtful. I don't want to expect too much. I choose to be in a steady state 'cause everything and anything can happen. I'm preparing for the best AND the worst. I hope that this week will be the final so if I will not be able to get in and hired, I'm ready to move on and try some other opportunities because I've just spend almost a month waiting and completing the pre employment requirements. I don't want those hard work be put to waste and I'm avoiding to think that I've just wasted 4 weeks waiting for them to offer me the job. The clock is ticking. Seriously, I hope and pray that this will be the last, If they aint gonna call me, becuase by next week Imma apply for other work and time is fuckin running out.

Drumroll please

by Taj-domayn C. Thompson


Here I stand,
Until the time
Was it a crime to see what cannot be touched
Hear voices speak words that can't be undone
Was it my fault I was invincible
To the naked eye, I am invisible
I cannot be seen
Because no one wants to see me
I am different
Different from the rest of them
So they ignore me
But I don't ignore them
No one is friendly
Why were they so blind
Because I am not them
I am only mine
I am different
But I can see
But they can't see me
I watch them fall
Divided they fall
Together they die
But here I stand
Until the end of time
Was it a crime that I was unique
Original to the human mind
I was invisible to there standards
Invisible to their lies
But as they kneel to beg
I watch them beg
But here I stand until the end of time
Was it a crime for me to live my life
A crime for wanting to survive
No one would answer
So I will wait until the end of time

We should not attach ourselves to objects cursed with temporal existence

- St. Augustine

'cause we all things are bound to last. disappointing but it's true.

If ever I’ll get rich someday, I’m gonna put up a bookstore then in the second floor it’ll be a coffee shop for all the book lovers to hang out and read the pocketbooks they’ve bought. The store will have to look kinda like this is the picture. hihi

ahhh. my fanciness for books is on it’s peak right now. forgive me. hihihi =)

I’ve been away from the cyberworld for a long time. Since in the first place I don’t have enough time to log in cause if I do I’ll spend lots of time until I realize that I’ve got 3 or 4 hrs of sleep and the nature of my work is tiring and all I wanna do after I got home is eat, take a batch, watch something on a TV for an hour and go straight to bed. So to keep me company while commuting on a train and when I got idle time at work is no other than books, yes. I don’t have an Ipod and my cp filled with lots of songs said goodbye two months ago. I have no choice and It came upon me that I’ve been buying pocketbooks everytime I go on a bookstore, will try to open and read but but never able to finish it. blimey.

I’ve got plenty of un-read books on my flat, I think the could some up to about 10+ and I’m disappointed with myself for not reading them, so I made a promise that I will read and finish it one by one. funny thing is, I haven’t finished those 10, and for these past few weeks, I bought 3 more. haha. I’m beginning to be a bookworm again. I missed this hobby of mine where I can spend the lazy afternoon with them sipping coffee and getting drawn to the plot of the story.

I think that books is a lot better than any useless things out there. I may spend less time hanging out with friends or in the net, but surely I’ll be allotting more of my time reading pocketbooks. It’s a habit that I don’t want to throw away. They’ve been there, accompanying me, making me happy, sad, laugh, cry, hopeful, and a whole lot more. It’s good to have them by my side.

A good book on your shelf is a friend that turns its back on you and remains a friend. ~Author Unknown

Books are the quietest and most constant of friends; they are the most accessible and wisest of counselors, and the most patient of teachers. ~Charles W. Eliot

dealing with people around the school is way too different than dealing with people in the working industry. I have already been in to two different jobs and bloody hell, I met the one of the most friendly to one of meanest thing ever. ‘course these kind of people we also meet at the campus but in work place?. it’s a different story. You can’t treat all of them like yer best friend or close friend or plain friend. You have to be aware, careful and sensitive enough to tell stories, rants and complaints to yer workmates. Some are full time betrayers, some are big time gossipers who don’t know how to shut their mouth and some wants to destroy you because they’re intimidated, In a working environment, you’ll be able to see the true colors of people if not now then later on. These are real people and we can do nothing about it but there are also exceptions, few of them. I’m lucky to have found two real and true persons that deserves to be called a friend. They’re going to be like the counterparts of yer bestfriends you used to hang out in school or in any place well sort of but not really best friend that you could tell anything about.

Meeting different kinds of people in the industry, interacting and dealing with them is not as easy as that in a school. You always have to be careful with whatever you say or do to other people and be smart enough to trust no one but yerself. It’s a crazy scary place.

VAMPIRE DIARIES

presenting, my latest addiction. I’m not a fan of sparkling vampires and the twilight saga, but this series made me go crazy (exaggeration intended) If Twilight’s a movie phenomenon, this is its counterpart in the tv screen. two HOT vampire brothers gets into a love triangle with an orphan girl. battle between good and evil. It has recently concluded its first season. I instantly got hooked. yeah men. I like this way more better than twilight. Who can’t resist the charms of those two vampires eh?. and ohh, they have recently took home 7 surfboards at the TEEN CHOICE AWARDS.

I totally hate those guys/girls who impose rules, do’s and don’ts for their gfs/boyfies. Those who try, no, WANTS to change their partner’s lifestyle/hobbies just for their sake. I mean, what’s wrong if he/she smokes so much? drinks so much? go out much?. ok, yes they are just concern and all that shit. It’s part of their system already even before they met that person so why try stopping them from doing the things they love? that’s insane. trying to stole away the happiness and freedom they enjoy with just a snap is ridiculous. what were they thinking?. Yeah they say they love their significant other but giving them ultimatum and all that bullshits isn’t healthy. is it love?. If you really love them, let them be. let them do what they want. Isn’t it nice to accept their good side and even their flaws and vices (like smoking & drinking for instance). Don’t transform it or modify it to something you want it to be. It’s their life it’s not yours anyway cause if you insist on that, they’ll only end up being miserable and unhappy. don’t change they way they are. If they wanna change, it heavily relies on themselves, on their decision not yours and the only thing you can do is to support them right?. Love the whole package. take it or leave it.

just my two cents

It’s been two months since I deactivated my Facebook acct. There’s just so many reasons that fueled me to do it. Some might say it’s a immature, while others will think hell, it’s just ok and well others just don’t care. Whenever I tell people and friends that I deleted my facebook, they’re in shock and wants to know why I did it. I answered ‘I just want to and I just wanna take a break’. A lot replied ok with that unconvinced look painted on their faces. I just don’t care what others think about why I did that. and why are they making a big deal out of it?.

I recently told some few trusted friends about the real motive behind the act, they understood and didn’t judge whatsoever. I also told them that I’m not worried what others might think, it’s not like I owe an explanation to them or what. I just did what is the best possible thing. and it really helped me a lot. I may be absent from the fb world but Im still active at certain sites especially on twitter and plurk. I dont know but I’m enjoying this hibernation from all the people I knew and just stick with the few ones that are worthy and somehow it helped me regain something that I’ve lost for quite sometime and it really feels good. inside and out.

for the record, I’m not really abandoning my acct, I’m just, let’s say on a vacation or something like that. I’ll prolly be back on track next year I guess?. well, not sure but in good time