XOXO

Everything in my life right now is in suspense and I don't know what to make of it. what to feel. excited?. nervous?. happy?. it's just a mixture of emotions and I can't pinpoint the dominant one. My application at Nestle is still on the line. it's still hanging for almost a month now, yesterday I've cleared for Medical exams. and after spending almost 3k for that, I finally get that slip where in it says I'm "fit to work". twas worth it. But I'm sure as hell don't want to be too confident about it, the HR head and Lab head STILL has to evaluate the results. I went to the Nestle Factory also only to find out that. I was about to exit the company's premises when a guard blocked and asked me to go back to the clinic, so there I was surprised and I had this big question mark on my face, so I went back and the nurse asked me some questions about my issue on smoking and all that, "why did you stop smoking?," "what's the reason?" and all that shit. I think she is going to back me up with the head of lab (I hope she does. ohmygod).

I left Batangas all hopeful. The other feelings are gone. While things are still in a halt, uncertain. undecided, I prefer to be a lil bit doubtful. I don't want to expect too much. I choose to be in a steady state 'cause everything and anything can happen. I'm preparing for the best AND the worst. I hope that this week will be the final so if I will not be able to get in and hired, I'm ready to move on and try some other opportunities because I've just spend almost a month waiting and completing the pre employment requirements. I don't want those hard work be put to waste and I'm avoiding to think that I've just wasted 4 weeks waiting for them to offer me the job. The clock is ticking. Seriously, I hope and pray that this will be the last, If they aint gonna call me, becuase by next week Imma apply for other work and time is fuckin running out.

Drumroll please