XOXO

Lately, Ive not been myself. the reason?. I don’t know. seriously and it’s kinda, sorta affecting my performance at work and it’s not a good sign. It seems like my mind is wondering off somewhere which I don’t know where to find or in the first place I know but completely ignored it and let it stay there. I usually caught myself feeling like a robot, designed to do this and that and not really paying attention to what I’m really doing. I just do what is programmed in my system and let my body do what it commands. afterwards, I would shriek in horror with what I’ve done. disaster. not a major though but hey it may lead to a bigger problem which I don’t want to happen of course.

Clumsiness has been my surname for the past two weeks. burnt skin on my arm, cuts on my fingers, sore fist, broken lab equipments due to carelessness. Well accidents have to be anticipated and expected in a laboratory setting so extra precaution must be done. It may be avoided I could stay focused and pay more attention to my analysis.

I was wondering is this the result of lack of vices?. because I’m lessening my consumption of these for almost two months?. illogical reasoning I know. haha. kidding aside, whatever is it or rather whoever it is who may be the cause of this trouble, I wish I could get rid of it, out of my mind, my system, my heart (probably). soon. I kept on thinking is it I who let it flew to that place or is it the one who stole my mind without me noticing it?. either so, I’ve no one else to blame but me. whatever the reason, I need to have it back before the worst thing happens. I must figure this out or else I’m dead. I still have hours before work resumes tomorrow.