XOXO

Doing something for the first time is both scary and exciting. You have no idea of what will happen next and it's for you to decide to know what it would be or forever wonder what's it like. I'm both worried and thrilled when something came up in my mind this morning after I woke up. Since it's payday yesterday I decided to go out, treat and reward myself for a job well done for the past 3 weeks of intense lab work.

And so I set off to the mall without any companion, friend or mom with me. I thought it would be lonely and boring to do something like that for example, shop, eat, stroll the mall, watch a movie alone. I was surprised by how things turned out. I find it enjoyable. I went to Glorietta and bought new clothes. Shopping is really a stress reliever.





I also bought 2 pairs of earrings and new shades


I got hungry and bought some jamaican patties. ohh they are really tasty and yummy

I tried going to coffee shops (Starbucks, Figaro etc) located at the mall but they’re full so I decided to go to Cash n Carry and luckily I found one at the third floor.But before I did, I passed by the Cinemas, and something in me asked “Why don’t you try seeing a movie alone?” I acted on impulse then I found myself holding a ticket for the 6:45 schedule for the Prince of Persia. Since I was early and I have to wait I went to the third floor had some coffee while reading a book.



Before going back to the cinema, I saw a lotto center, went there and tried to wager. And before I went into the cinema, I bought some tater’s what's a good movie without nachos and popcorn?



I had so much fun today. really. I went home tired but happy. I’m thinking of Doing this again every once in a while. This will surely be a date to remember. :)

I used to love surprises, but now?. I’m starting to hate it. Life is playing tricks on me lately and it's unexpected and always leaves me speechless. Every once in a while I like to have surprises, but consecutive?. hell no. It’s getting worse than I ever thought and it has been taking up a lot of my energy, more on the emotional state and its kinda exhausting and somewhat painful to accept. But what should I do, I have to endure and gradually accept the things in front of me. In time I will, but not now for sure. oh life I really hope you’ll fuck me good after all of this. Ill be patient.

Doing the same thing over and over again just tires me up and I’m beginning to be disappointed and dissatisfied with what’s going on…

I’m thinking of having a break. a break from all the things that have been plaguing me ever since, to get rid of stuffs that have been polluting my mind lately, to distance myself from all the people around me, take some time off of the usual rituals, escape for once all the drama, run to some unknown place and spend time alone. just me time. Give myself a time to think things over, reflect over the bad decisions and mistakes done over the past few months.

This is not easy of course. But I should and have to do this. I feel like I need to. isolation will be the new routine (not totally). Work and Family will be my priority right now.